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Fear

I used to have a fear..a fear of being alone. I didnt wanna be left alone cause obviously you think about things you try to not think about* My fear was to be left alone with my toughts..I did my best to avoid that moment..I used to tell my friends that don't hang up untill u hear me snoar! (-.-). Anywho..there comes a time in life when you just give up..
Life has changed and I like to be left alone..I can sit alone for hours and just listen to music. I can go on walks alone and I don't need to call any friend. Cause I like my own company..I let my toughts run thru me, I let in what I've been blocking so long..

Many of my friends see me as a happy person *which I'm* but sometimes been quit and don't mingle with anyone is so relaxing..
will catch up later..to be continued

2014-07-22 @ 13:35:45 Permalink Allmänt Kommentarer (0) Trackbacks ()

Tracks in our lives

Its been a while since i wrote anything here..I just didnt feel for uppdating anything new here.

Well..life has been hell of a roller-coster. No need to get in details but the way life is..i feel very blessed the way life is right now.

Mostly im at my work, yeah! i know its summer and i should be out having fun. But i feel obssesed with my work(money). The only thing i keep telling myself is that Spain is waiting for me (my vecation).

Right now i feel so lost in my own toughts..i wish i could talk to myself in mirror and get some answers. I wanna be mad and scream out, but..one thing i know is that ''never speak when you are mad'' cause later on we regret our language, behaviour, actions etc.

I know that people love to write diaries and go thru them after years..But i dont think that its my thing..Sometimes i dont even wanna remember how things have been..think about memories. (i know i sound so so sooo stupid)

You might be asking yourself that why do i share things here? Well its cause i dont wanna call anyone and annoy them with my drama..so rather explode my toughts and feelings here..

p.s i read The Fault In Our Stars..and i did not like it!! BUT i still wanna watch the movie.

Okay..now im bored..Alvida!

2014-07-19 @ 20:09:18 Permalink Allmänt Kommentarer (0) Trackbacks ()